It was sunny.
Sky and the waters were blue.
I remember being in a motor boat. Don't remember being windy. But it was a fun day, at least before molten lava started pouring out the sea.
The lava didn't flow in a spread manner. It flowed out like a river from a small hole on a nearby mountain out in the sea. The river like lava went south-west. It was so quick and so fast. And none of us had time to be prepared for it.
My brother was in the sea along with some other people. The boat i was in sped away like the wind. Couldn't shout out to my bro in time. I don't know what happened to him. I wanted to tell him to go under the water because the lava seemed to be moving above the water surface.
The lava was following us. Some of it got onto my glasses. But strangely enough, it didn't get burned. It felt like someone throwing a pudding on one's glasses.
Next thing I knew, I was on land... On a fast jeepney going into some town. The lava was still following us. We outran the molten thing. In one of the houses we went into, I saw red hot water going out of the bathroom's shower.
My friends were talking.. They were sitted on a wooden chair. Some were standing. Saw something red glowing from them.. like a red eye.
Thinking about my brother, I fell on my knees and cried, and prayed to God that they be spared, that they live and be alright....
The dream ended there. And I did actually pray in that dream.
The feeling was just so real... so intense...
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
De Ja Vou
It's funny how life runs and turns. What you did in the past, you can't escape from it in the future. You can lie, cheat, deceive, steal and think that you can get away with it all when in truth, you just can't.
I think deja vou can also be linked to what my father would call as law of reciprocity.
It's just funny, that what I did to an old acquaintance before is happening to me now. And I find it weird because, I get to relive what it felt like and how it felt to that person since I am now the reactor or receiver of what I did before.
I guess more are to come in my lifetime. I haven't been a good boy in the past =(
I think deja vou can also be linked to what my father would call as law of reciprocity.
It's just funny, that what I did to an old acquaintance before is happening to me now. And I find it weird because, I get to relive what it felt like and how it felt to that person since I am now the reactor or receiver of what I did before.
I guess more are to come in my lifetime. I haven't been a good boy in the past =(
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Reconnecting....
I'm feeling rather sleepy and tired while writing this one down. Haven't had much sleep since the C shift took over my schedule. Actually, it's a mixture of B, A , normal and C shifts mixed in 1 month. My medulla seems to have a small burning sensation. Must be because of insufficient time with my fluffy and cozy companion: the pillow.
I am glad, and happy... that I get to chance to reconnect or communicate once again with people or friends I got acquainted with for the longest time. It may be a small text message, or chat message, but all the same, communication's been re-established.
During my stay in Kforce / AMKOR, I've learnt (and am still learning) to value life, the people I am with, and have been with. It's not everyday that you meet someone so energetic in a workplace such as ours, or someone who can make you laugh at the silliest jokes. Or sometimes, even at the simple truths. It's not everyday that there are people who make you feel how important you are to them, how good you can make them feel just by being there... just by being yourself. Others, they're happy when one works hard... But then of course, there comes a day when you can't please everybody.
I'm nearing my 27th year, and I have so far constant connection with my bes, my bro, my sis, my dad, a little with my mom but there seems to be an improvement. Friends in previous workplaces, in different places... Exs, acquaintances, chatmates....
There are some whom I am unable to get thru anymore... Or perhaps, I haven't tried hard enough. You see, I'm not an angel as others perceive me to be... I also have grown my own set of horns over the years. It's hard to get rid of them, but ..... faith in God works wonders =) And because of my past actions, I've been shut off from their world. Kinda like, a firewall has been set up.
I'm glad btw, that my parents are still with us. Mom teaches us the value of trust, of respect. Dad teaches us or advises us on what life is.
I can't believe that I've been able to write down this many even though I'm tired. :D Must be because of the delicious tuna rice my sister served me tonight.
Gonna get some rest now. Tomorrow, I'll be meeting up with my ex. Gonna return something pretty important :D Tomorrow, I'll be enjoying once again the bus ride to Sucat. The cool breeze as one is on the bus never ceases to make me happy.
I am glad, and happy... that I get to chance to reconnect or communicate once again with people or friends I got acquainted with for the longest time. It may be a small text message, or chat message, but all the same, communication's been re-established.
During my stay in Kforce / AMKOR, I've learnt (and am still learning) to value life, the people I am with, and have been with. It's not everyday that you meet someone so energetic in a workplace such as ours, or someone who can make you laugh at the silliest jokes. Or sometimes, even at the simple truths. It's not everyday that there are people who make you feel how important you are to them, how good you can make them feel just by being there... just by being yourself. Others, they're happy when one works hard... But then of course, there comes a day when you can't please everybody.
I'm nearing my 27th year, and I have so far constant connection with my bes, my bro, my sis, my dad, a little with my mom but there seems to be an improvement. Friends in previous workplaces, in different places... Exs, acquaintances, chatmates....
There are some whom I am unable to get thru anymore... Or perhaps, I haven't tried hard enough. You see, I'm not an angel as others perceive me to be... I also have grown my own set of horns over the years. It's hard to get rid of them, but ..... faith in God works wonders =) And because of my past actions, I've been shut off from their world. Kinda like, a firewall has been set up.
I'm glad btw, that my parents are still with us. Mom teaches us the value of trust, of respect. Dad teaches us or advises us on what life is.
I can't believe that I've been able to write down this many even though I'm tired. :D Must be because of the delicious tuna rice my sister served me tonight.
Gonna get some rest now. Tomorrow, I'll be meeting up with my ex. Gonna return something pretty important :D Tomorrow, I'll be enjoying once again the bus ride to Sucat. The cool breeze as one is on the bus never ceases to make me happy.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Dinner with Family
Had a feast with my family. We ate fried chicken (bought from the vendor which was on the opposite side of Iglesia ni Cristo church in Angono), Selecta Ice cream (Chocolate Truffle, which was my God so good!!), and drank Novellino Strawberry passion. Now, this red wine only costs P203.00 in SM Taytay, low alcohol content of 4.5% and it's rather sweet and good to the taste when drank with ice.
It's sad though coz big bro and sis-in-law weren't able to make it due to heavy traffic from Taytay Market (which was very heavy upto Muzon even at night).
Reason why we had this feast was to celebrate a few happenings:
1) I was nominated as an employee of the quarter by my mother company. I am very happy, and glad, coz I was nominated by my officemates. And hard work paid off. It's a first, and I'm very happy about it =)
2) Just assigned as the Lead Analyst for one of the customer of our client. It's not the easiest customer, believe me. But, it's gonna be a challenge. And, my TL definitely believes in what I can do. So, I'm going to give it my all.
3) Mom's hard work has finally paid off.
4) Big Bro is gonna have a baby boy soon! And I'm gonna be one big happy uncle when that day comes. hehehe
5) We're alive. All of this won't have meaning if we're dead.
I'm just glad that after all I've been through in my life, I'm still here... Eating with my family, laughing with 'em and my friends... able to work and feel happiness, sorrow, pain, joy, etc...
It's just good to be alive ! =)
It's sad though coz big bro and sis-in-law weren't able to make it due to heavy traffic from Taytay Market (which was very heavy upto Muzon even at night).
Reason why we had this feast was to celebrate a few happenings:
1) I was nominated as an employee of the quarter by my mother company. I am very happy, and glad, coz I was nominated by my officemates. And hard work paid off. It's a first, and I'm very happy about it =)
2) Just assigned as the Lead Analyst for one of the customer of our client. It's not the easiest customer, believe me. But, it's gonna be a challenge. And, my TL definitely believes in what I can do. So, I'm going to give it my all.
3) Mom's hard work has finally paid off.
4) Big Bro is gonna have a baby boy soon! And I'm gonna be one big happy uncle when that day comes. hehehe
5) We're alive. All of this won't have meaning if we're dead.
I'm just glad that after all I've been through in my life, I'm still here... Eating with my family, laughing with 'em and my friends... able to work and feel happiness, sorrow, pain, joy, etc...
It's just good to be alive ! =)
Monday, August 31, 2009
Eye in The Sky
Took this picture last Monday, August 24, 2009: which was a few days after my bro's wedding... I took a picture using my cellphone of which I thought was the Mt. Makiling. After checking the image on my cp, I was surprised to see that it resembled an eye.
A few minutes ago, the image was flashed into my mind... and then, the name of the song that related to it: Eye in the Sky.
Dont think sorrys easily said
Dont try turning tables instead
Youve taken lots of chances before
But Im not gonna give anymore
Dont ask me
Thats how it goes
Cause part of me knows what youre thinkin
Dont say words youre gonna regret
Dont let the fire rush to your head
Ive heard the accusation before
And I aint gonna take any more
Believe me
The sun in your eyes
Made some of the lies worth believing
Chorus:
I am the eye in the sky
Looking at you
I can read your mind
I am the maker of rules
Dealing with fools
I can cheat you blind
And I dont need to see any more
To know that
I can read your mind, I can read your mind
Dont leave false illusions behind
Dont cry cause I aint chnaging my mind
So find another fool like before
Cause I aint gonna live anymore believing
Some of the lies while all of the signs are deceiving
(chorus)
The link of the site is: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/a/alan+parsons+project/eye+in+the+sky_20005307.html
I can kinda relate to the lyrics :D
Too quiet
Man, the house is sooooo quiet... No wonder mom leaves the house frequently...
Miss big bro... married Last August 22, 2009.
Too quiet... wish I could talk to someone.... Although kinda repetitive, but I wish I could share my thoughts, feelings with someone....
Here I am again... browsing thru social sites in the hope of finding that person who can fill the half part of me.. and then, my heart and mind are in the same feud as they have been years ago. Haven't I learned enough? Haven't I learned anything yet?
Reason why I go to such sites is because I feel loneliness... at this point, emptiness...
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Missing so many...
I kinda feel different these past few days. A bit down here and there. Like the title says, I am missing quite a many people here and there.
For one, there is this person whom I had this feeling for a long time (several years). It's quite weird (even I find it weird) that I still miss this person or I get depressed thinking of this person even though we only met once. But, that's what I'm feeling right now. I miss him so much. I wish and pray that I get to see him one more time.
Let's see... then, there's this friend of mine. I did something that I didn't want to but did anyway because .. well it's complicated. Bad thing is, our communication got severed. I miss the jokes, the talks, the stories that we shared. He was one of those people who believed that I had what it takes to take on a different path. To do something different. Even though before I didn't believe in myself that I could do it.
My dad. He's abroad working. Hope and pray that he's fine and that he comes home safely.
I guess I'm also feeling somewhat blue because my bro is gonna get married in a few months time. I'm happy for him and his gf. I am happy for both of them! But sometimes, you know... I guess it goes when the person you've been with is going somewhere else.
My ex. Even though things didn't go between us, part of me still misses the companionship that we shared. Sometimes I wonder if the love that was relayed to me was genuine. Sometimes, I just wonder... Sometimes, it just comes to mind that I want to shout at this person and say "I hate you!" But then again, sometimes you just have to let things go....
My ex-ex. Now this one, is really different. We're still friends after the break up. Played billiards during the short stay here in Philippines, watched StarTrek, walked a few kilometers to get to Shakeys before we got to eat there. I'm not complaining! (If you're reading this.. hehehe) . Anyway, it was nice to have experienced that.
My grandma. It's been a couple of months after she died. The sweetest, dearest and nicest person I've been with since high school. She took care of me and my brother during our high school days up until college (before my parents came back from Bahrain). I still have dreams of her from time to time, feeling sad in my dream and as if I wanted to cry in my dream... I miss her, the stories we shared, the wisdom she imparted, the techniques she applied in her work, in life, etc. She was an awesome woman. She is with flaws, but hey... who isn't. Like they say, you only realize the importance of the person when they're no longer there.... =0(
My ex-gf. Still remember breaking up with her in a local fast food chain in StaLu. I was young back then. Foolish and stupid. She's going to get married soon, and for that I'm happy for her. She finally gets to settle down with the person she loves. Hope to have a cup of coffee with her sometime.
I'm feeling sleepy now... Gonna shut my eyes...
For one, there is this person whom I had this feeling for a long time (several years). It's quite weird (even I find it weird) that I still miss this person or I get depressed thinking of this person even though we only met once. But, that's what I'm feeling right now. I miss him so much. I wish and pray that I get to see him one more time.
Let's see... then, there's this friend of mine. I did something that I didn't want to but did anyway because .. well it's complicated. Bad thing is, our communication got severed. I miss the jokes, the talks, the stories that we shared. He was one of those people who believed that I had what it takes to take on a different path. To do something different. Even though before I didn't believe in myself that I could do it.
My dad. He's abroad working. Hope and pray that he's fine and that he comes home safely.
I guess I'm also feeling somewhat blue because my bro is gonna get married in a few months time. I'm happy for him and his gf. I am happy for both of them! But sometimes, you know... I guess it goes when the person you've been with is going somewhere else.
My ex. Even though things didn't go between us, part of me still misses the companionship that we shared. Sometimes I wonder if the love that was relayed to me was genuine. Sometimes, I just wonder... Sometimes, it just comes to mind that I want to shout at this person and say "I hate you!" But then again, sometimes you just have to let things go....
My ex-ex. Now this one, is really different. We're still friends after the break up. Played billiards during the short stay here in Philippines, watched StarTrek, walked a few kilometers to get to Shakeys before we got to eat there. I'm not complaining! (If you're reading this.. hehehe) . Anyway, it was nice to have experienced that.
My grandma. It's been a couple of months after she died. The sweetest, dearest and nicest person I've been with since high school. She took care of me and my brother during our high school days up until college (before my parents came back from Bahrain). I still have dreams of her from time to time, feeling sad in my dream and as if I wanted to cry in my dream... I miss her, the stories we shared, the wisdom she imparted, the techniques she applied in her work, in life, etc. She was an awesome woman. She is with flaws, but hey... who isn't. Like they say, you only realize the importance of the person when they're no longer there.... =0(
My ex-gf. Still remember breaking up with her in a local fast food chain in StaLu. I was young back then. Foolish and stupid. She's going to get married soon, and for that I'm happy for her. She finally gets to settle down with the person she loves. Hope to have a cup of coffee with her sometime.
I'm feeling sleepy now... Gonna shut my eyes...
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